Christmas is over..for better and worse.. what's with the holidays that's effecting us so much, I wonder. It's like the whole year accumulates in four days. All the joy, all the sadness, all the regret, all the wishes of a whole year are most likely to appear during Christmas. Is it because we aren't in touch with our feelings the rest of the time? We' re saving all of it to the "happiest time of the year"?
This year I'm dealing with some of my past, digging into things I've forgotten but my body remembers and one goal is to be more in contact with all the nine basic human feelings:
Until now, I think I've used my music to express my feelings through,as many people do. What I did before I found this form of therapy, I don't know. I supressed a lot, I guess. On some level, I feel that my music is the only real part of me. When I make music, I don't try to impress or get people to like me. I'm off course afraid, that the music is not good enough, but in the making-moment, when I sit down by the piano, when I have a feeling or I'm in a mood, and wants to write a song, I truly do it for my own sake. I make, and therefor I am. I am myself.
So my music is a result of my background, who I am now, and also who I want to become. Now I have dreams and hopes, and are about to make a new course in my life. I dare to put my heart out there, to write music, record and release it, to write this blog, to be personal, which is crazy scary. I dare this, because I now know more about myself, who I am, and who I want to be. And I like me. And if I like myself maybe others will like me to. And if they don't, they can f.....off!
So people, in 2017, find out how you can like yourself!Dig into the feelings that's not comfortable digging into, I'm quite certain something good will come of it.
I wish you all the best ❤️
Is this only broken glass, or has it become something new?something strong and beautiful??